Friday, September 19, 2008

writerama

OK, I am officially in the dazed and confused part now. The beginning seems sound but the novel is now veering off in all directions and not listening to me at all! I know this is al process, and I also know that I forget this every book. Luck for me I kept notes on my last book about process and a friend told me something telling, which is that I am like a crow hunting crazily around for that shiny thing and sometimes it takes me a while to find it.

Since I am fascinated by how others work and write (and I once knew a writer who insisted that writing was easy and if it wasn't why do it? This writer also said there was nothing to do but "follow your pen" and that why would you want to hurt characters you loved? Wasn't it better to give them happiness all the time? Despite the lunacy --I think--of these remarks, said writer has written some fine novels and is acclaimed, which means all different processes and thoughts can produce art.) So, how do you write? What daunts you?

4 comments:

Danielle said...

Last month,I curled both hands over a sticky coated safety bar and slid my capris into the seat of the Tilt-A-Whirl. While my daughter fingered the neon All-Day bracelet, I pouted over my manuscript.
This self-inflicted pain has continued since the bud of my divorce. It seems my committment to trudge through such a harsh decision left me blind. Ideas flit through my mind without searching for pencil and pad. I wonder, will I ever find my way forward. My voice mumbles. My heart aches cliche. Yet, as I pack an office of incomplete manuscripts peppered with my own words, my eyebrows bend, my lips slightly curl. It's me I see. The Tilt-A-Whirl jolts. Eyes widen. Chloe giggles. I breath.

Clea Simon said...

It is hard to bear down, Danielle, to trust yourself and do the work (strangely enough, I was just blogging about this). But you've got to - it pays you back. So, uh, that's where I am - trying to make myself focus. Trying to remember how to think. Trying to put words on paper to sort out later...

Caroline said...

Danielle, I absolutely understand, but you know as one who has been through quite a lot of horrific minefields in my own life, I can tell you that what is probably happening is your subconscious is still processing everything that is going on in your life. You may not be ready to write what you need to write. Do it anyway, knowing that it will unfold when it is able to. Just help it along by putting words, however crummy, on paper. Soon it will unlock.

Gina Sorell said...

I write with resistance, frustration, dread, anxiety...all this just getting to the computer...and then I start and am immediately exhausted as if I need to sleep...my brain's way of saying...go lie down, don't write it's too hard...rest. I fight this little demon on my shoulder and start with e-mailing, or blogging, or re-reading what I have done the day before and following the little notes that I have left myself at the end of where I left off, that say things like..."describe her apartment," "show her relationship with her mother in a flashback" etc. These notes are all about giving me a mini road map that gets me started. Eventually I give over and the writing happens and the snacking begins and I munch and type and listen to music and feel surprised all over again, that anything can come out of my brain.